It sometimes seems that I spend half of my waking hours disappointed. I live in this world where it becomes shrouded in a mist of disappointment when others let me down and disappointment when I let myself down.

As a believer do I ever consider what are God’s expectations of me and what happens when I let him down? This can raise barriers between God, and me, especially when he has made it possible for me to approach His throne of grace freely, yet persistently I am reluctant.

How hungry am I for God to move? In my life when I join with the family of God when we meet together in times of worship on a Sunday or in meeting together as a small group or just meeting up for a coffee with a couple of friends?

How hungry am I for God to move in the attitudes and prejudices I may carry around with me each day as I live my life and encounter issues that militate against who I should be?

Recently, when I come to church I have been asking myself these simple yet profound questions,

• How keen am I to meet with Jesus?
• What level of spiritual expectation do I have?
• Am I eager for his presence?
• Do I expect Jesus to turn up?

I want to meet with God and I want God to meet with me. But if I am reluctant, how can I expect the life and power of God work through me if I am not allowing God to work on me on the inside?